You do not know where your decisions come from. They just pop up.
People have a great deal of anxiety about making decisions – “Did I think this over long enough? Did I take enough data into consideration?” And if you think it through you find out you never could take enough data into consideration, since the data for a decision in any given situation is infinite. So what you do is you go through the emotions of thinking about what you will do about this, but worriers are people who think of all the variables beyond their control, and what might happen!
Choice is the act of hesitation that we make before making a decision, it is a mental wobbling, and so we are always in a dither of doubt as to whether we are behaving the right way, doing the right thing, and so on and so forth, and lack a certain kind of self confidence. And if you see you lack self confidence, you will make mistakes through sheer fumbling. If you do have self confidence you may get carried away doing the entirely the wrong thing. You have to regard yourself as a cloud, in the flesh, because you see clouds never makes mistakes. Did you ever see a cloud that was misshappen? Have you ever seen a badly designed wave? Heh, no they always do the right thing! But if you treat yourself for awhile as a cloud, a wave, and realize that you can’t make a mistake no matter what you do. Because even if you do something that seems to be totally disastrous, it will all come out in the wash somehow or other. Then through this capacity you will develop a kind of confidence, and through confidence you will be able to trust your own intuition.
This is the middle way of knowing it has nothing to do with your decisions to do this or not whether you decide that you can’t make a mistake or whether you don’t decide if it’s true anyway if you are like a cloud. And through that realization without overcompensating in the other direction you will come to the point where you begin to be on good terms with your own being and able to trust your own brain.
Every path is the right path. You Decide Who You Are.